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Wednesday, October 18, 2017

I'm having a bad case of pre-30 meltdown

And it's badly affecting my sleep pattern.

It's 4:30am and I haven't really slept yet. 

I always wake up after lunch already.

What the hell is wrong with me? 

Why do I sleep late. wake up late. work late. 

Huffington post's pre-30 crisis symptoms is on point.

Never ending life crisis at every stage!! I swear!!

During my quarter life crisis I was on a limbo of what I really want to do in life. And now that I have actually achieved something, I start questioning my worth. Why didn't I just stick to the status quo? I started my fresh graduate life so well entering the corporate world in a multi-national company. I could have climbed up the ladder by now. Why didn't I stay in Shell petroleum company? Why didn't I stick to the corporate life? Now I have to deal with so many life issues with first questioning what I wanted to do in life and now that I have actually found what I wanted to do, I'm questioning myself again if I'm actually in the right path? 

Ay me.. the course of true love never did run smooth.

At least something is certain, I want to be in the learning business... may it be in the education setting or corporate setting through trainings. My knowledge has accumulated under the expertise of how human people can learn better. How learning environments can be designed for maximum learning opportunities. How outcomes can be assessed. At least that's something I am sure that I can and want to do.

But how about customer service? I have experienced working in a customer service type of skill set when I was working in the admissions office of my university. Although the customers there were students and parents, I really learned a lot when it comes to dealing with people. It does take a lot of compassion and patience. I also enjoyed my work there and I probably need to develop my skills on understanding irate people more. 

Aaaaaah.... it's almost 5am and I'm not sure if I should sleep or just prepare for work and go to work early.

In 2 months I will be 30 years old and it really affects me badly. 

Tuesday, October 17, 2017

I beat myself when I forget things

It happens. I know. But whenever I lose things. Forget things. I beat myself so hard with my thoughts.

Regrets. Moving on. I need to teach myself how to handle these scenarios.

On another note, my friend told me it's probably because I am thinking about a lot of things.


There's so many things in my mind.

Life. Adulting. Turning 30. Moving life forward. Expectations. Growth.


Managing it.

Monday, October 16, 2017

Thoughts on Integrating Technology

Important aspects to remember on Technology Integration: 

Does the activity engage the student on the learning goal or the manipulation of the device?

Is the activity something that cannot be achieved without the enhancement of the technology? 

Does the technology provide an extension of the classroom by connecting it to the outside world? 

Saturday, October 14, 2017

Why is it taking me so long to finish this damn book.

I'm investing a lot of my time finishing this book that I've been wanting to finish for ages. 

For a book that wants to teach people how to make ideas that stick, this book is sure quite lengthy.

I'm not sure if it's practicing what it preaches and how are they sure the ideas that they want to convey are going to stick to the reader when this book is just so damn long to read.

The only thing that's keeping me interested in wanting to finish the book is the "Knowledge Gap" as coincidentally they are explaining in the current chapter I'm reading on. 

Well in summary, the book explains in the introduction that there are 6 principles to remember when trying to generate ideas that "stick" to people's minds. 


Well, here's to me hoping that I remember all those principles.

I still have 3 more books to focus on. How to win friends and influence people, Good to Great & Learning first Technology Second. 

This is me just trying to make my brain bigger by stuffing in a lot of information.

I hope I also don't forget to practice my Spanish. I only have 2 more months before I renew my 1 year subscription to Babbel again. 

Wednesday, October 11, 2017

Books I'm Reading

I'm trying to juggle my time where I can practice my Spanish and at the same time be able to read the books I want to read.

Wow, look at me... I sound like a book worm. Whereas I remember the days when I hated reading. But eventually I realized I hated reading because I haven't really discovered the things that you can learn from books.

Currently I'm reading Made To Stick and Learning First, Tecunology Second.

I actually remember that I started reading Good To Great and How To Make Fruends and Influence People, but I never got to absorb everything it said.

So now I'm deciding I'm going to juggle reading these 4 books.

I like reading books where I learn things... and most of them are actually related to things that I can apply on how I live my life. I guess that's why my degree is psychology. I like studying human behavior and I am constantly reflecting on my own behavior and trying to improve myself.

There are actually a lot of things I want to happen in my life right now but most of them are out of my control. So might as well focus on the things I can control and try not to waste too much of my time on things that are not really an investment (like playing Fall Out Shelter or Binge Watching TV series)

This post is a reminder to read

1) Made to Stick: Why some ideas survive and others die
2) Learning First, Technology Second: The Educator's Guide to Designing Authentic Lessons
3) Good To Great: Why some companies make the leap.. and others don't
4) How to make friends and Influence People

Focus focus focus gotta finish them all!

Monday, October 9, 2017

Professional Teaching License

It's the time of the year I need to renew my teaching license.

The professional regulation commission has a lot of changes these coming years when it comes to renewing professional licenses. They require professionals to acquire a certain number of units before renewing.
I used my iPhone front facing camera to take this photo of myself :)
And then edited the background to pure white with Photoshop

This is why you should know basic Photoshop skills. XD 

Thankfully I have my master's degree completed, that would cover my need to comply.

Fortunately for teachers, they don't need to complete any units as long as you renew before December 2017.

Luckily for me, my teaching license will expire this coming December 2017 and I am due for renewal before that. So now, I don't really need to comply with the units yet.

Woo! Either way, I'm so prepared for this.

I am the type of person who wants to do things in advance because I don't want to rush and I don't really like the crowd. The type of person who starts her Christmas shopping in September because I don't want to compete with shoppers by December. Thus, because of this, my friends actually rely to me to explain to them the experience I have from 1) Talking board exams to 2) Renewing Licenses. 

All you really need to do is follow the instructions on the website and hope that the website is user friendly with clear instructions.

I watched the video on the new license renewal for the PRC. It showed that there are really just few steps now.... 1) apply online and make an appointment.. 2) pay at recognized payment centers... and then on the day of your appointment you just have to go to the processing window and then claim your ID to the claiming window.

Aside from the application form, it doesn't seem to show if you will have to bring any additional requirements. 

Hopefully, my experience with the new renewal system is as easy as the video shows... My friends and colleagues will have to depend on my experience.

And then next year, I will have to process my second license... the Psychometrician license... 

Saturday, October 7, 2017

Gracias Y Merci

Ahora es el tiempo para aprender a nuevo idioma.

I'm going to start familiarizing myself with the French language as I continue to practice Spanish.

I'm thinking of studying these languages: Spanish ✔️. 

Then, French. Then, German. 

Maybe a little Italian after German. 

But my priorities would be Spanish, French and German. 

For many reasons that I would blog about on a later date.

For now, Me quiero aprender lenguajes! 

Friday, October 6, 2017

Don't settle..

There's so many things going on in my head right now but all I can say is, "I must never give up".

Sunday, October 1, 2017

Signs that I'm turning 30...

Currently in Davao for work.

Tomorrow (aka Today) is our last day here in Davao and a group of colleagues wants to maximize their time here and visit an Island.

They're planning to leave the house at 3:30am because they want to see the sun rise at that island. As I was taking a shower at 2:00am, it took me a very long time contemplating about my decisions of joining this group. My inner self wants to sleep in. One of my colleagues said that she just thinks that when you're traveling it would be better to maximize what you could see in that new place rather  than spending your time sleeping when you can sleep anywhere you are. That excuse made me feel guilty that I was a party pooper. The person who's not "G" for adventure.

It made me think about traveling over sleep and it made me think that, that was my logic when I was much younger.

If in the past vacation for me sounded like a get-a-way to be free.

Vacation for me now is pressing the snooze button and forgetting about responsibilities and life.

Tuesday, September 26, 2017

PRactice ... practice ... Practice...

Entiendo un poco español. Puedo un poco leer y escribir pero no hay personas para practicar a hablar español por qué no hay mucho personas en Filipinas que hablar español.  solo mi enseno aprender español. Empezado un hace año con la Babbel subscription en linea.

Wednesday, August 30, 2017

Every Morning Is A Heartbreak.


Many many thanks to the people who attended our grandparent's funeral. So many people spared their time in joining us with prayers and mourning. Thank you so much. 
I don't have videos from my grandfather's funeral because I went to accompany my grandmother to the hospital right after gramp's burial.
How should I know that that trip to the hospital was already a sign of my grandmother wanting to follow grampa? But they are both together now and laid to rest beside each other. 
We are overwhelmed with the people who showed their support. Thank you.

Monday, August 21, 2017

Goodbye, my Grandmother

Silver gray hair
Neatly combed in place
There were four generations
Of love on her face
She was so wise
No surprise passed her eyes
She's seen it all

I was a child, oh
About three or four
All day I'd ask questions
At night I'd ask more
But whenever, she never
Would ever turn me away
No, no oh woah
I'd say how can I be sure
What is right or wrong
And why does
What I want
Always take so long
Please tell me
Where does God live
And why won't
He talk to me
I'd say Grandma
What is love
Will I ever find out
Why are we so poor
What is life about
I wanna know the answers
Before I fall off to sleep
Woah ho woah ho

She saw the smile
As she tucked me in
Then she pulled up that
Old rockin' chair once again
But tonight she was
Slightly, remarkably
Different somehow
Slowly she rocked
Lookin' half asleep
Grandma yawned
As she stretched
Then she started to speak
What she told me
Would mould me and holds me
Together inside
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

She said all the things you ask
You will know someday
But you have got to live
In a patient way
God put us here by fate
And by fate that means
Better days

She said, child we are all
Moons in the dark of night
Ain't no mornings gonna come
Till the time is right
Can't get no better days lest
You make it through the night
You gotta make it
Through the night
Yes you do
You can't get to no
Better days
Unless you make it
Through the night (baby)
Oh ho, you will see
Those better days
But you gotta be patient
Be patient, oh baby
Be patient

Later that year at
The turn of spring
Heaven sent angels down
And gave Grandma her wings
Now, she's flyin'
And slidin', and glidin'
In better days
And although
I'm all grown up
I still get confused
I stumble through the dark
Getting bumped and bruised
When night gets in my way
I could still hear
My Grandma say
I can hear her say
I can hear her sayin'

You can't get to no
Better days
Unless you make it
Through the night (baby)
Oh ho, you will see
Those better days
But you gotta be patient
Child, do you hear me, yeah
Well, well, well, well
You can't get to no, no
Better days
Unless you make it
You got to make it
You got to make it
Through the night
Oh Grandma, oh Grandma
Do you see me now, lady
Oh oh oh oh oh

Monday, July 31, 2017

Good bye, my Grandfather.

I watched how the nurses alternately tried to resuscitate my grandfather. I never wanted my sister to put down the phone because I wanted to know what was happening, every single bit of the time. I wanted to see what the nurses would do. Will they continue to take turns in helping my grandfather beat his heart again? Not everybody knows that my grandfather is not my biological grandfather. But he treated me and my sister as his own, right from the start. He was the grandfather I knew. He loved us the same and I loved him equally as well. I watched the nurses revive him. 

Until they stopped... talked to each other.. And then asked my sister and relatives to go inside. I told my sister I want to hear every word. It was choppy, I didn't understand what the doctor/nurse was saying. But I was at peace knowing that I felt I was inside the room as well. 

I was in the other side of the world when everything happened. First my grandfather had a cardiac arrest, went into comatose, and then completely lost his heart beat.

I used to visit my grandparents in California, multiple times. I stayed there for half a year times two. I stopped my graduate school to go back to LA. I used to believe that if I didn't go to California then I would have graduated early. But I don't regret it. I was able to spend a lot of time with the folks and that was worth all the delays. 

I love you Lolo. Thanks for everything. I hope I meet a man who's heart is as big as yours. Your relationship with Lola is the ultimate relationship goal. You were so patient, kinds and generous. You always thought of other people first. I remember when you were in the hospital in California, you would call me and still ask me if Lola ate dinner already. You were the sick one and you still thought of Lola. 

Anybody who knew you is blessed to have known such a gentleman you are. I wish there were more men like you. Please guide us in heaven. I love you so much. 

It was such a crazy week this past week.
I booked a ticket to go home ASAP from Toronto because I wanted to mourn with my family. I did not want to be alone so far away. I wanted to be with my cousins. I want to see my grandfather before we buried him. I want to spend time with my family. 

I spent a huge amount of money going home too soon but every day that I wake up I thank myself for having made that decision. It hasn't fully sinked in that j am back home. Everything that happened the past month feels like it was only a dream. I wish the death of my grandfather was only a dream.

After the funeral, I didn't have enough time to grieve becuase I had to rush my grandmother to the hospital. I still had the jetlag but there was so many things happening that I couldn't really fully grieve, moreso even rest.

I am hoping that my grandmother still remains to be healthy and that she doesn't leave us too soon. But times like these you appreciate being with family more.

Life shall continue to happen. I woke up with a high fever probably due to the exhaustion. From the moment I landed in Manila, I didn't have enough time to really rest

Should I get back with life? Or should I allow myself to grieve? I'm not really sure anymore. I don't know where to get the strength of what is happening. I'm not sure if I'm completely ready to go back to work, either. 

Saturday, July 29, 2017

Oh, Canada 🇨🇦

Niagara Falls, Ontario

Canada is such a beautiful place. 

I promise to go back and maybe start a new life there. Wherever God will take me, I know God has made his plans. 

Canada 150 🇨🇦

Floral Clock, Ontario

Zipline to the Falls - Niagara Falls, Ontario, Canada 

Wednesday, July 12, 2017

Lessons in Life

Next time I'm going to think of myself more. I need to be more selfish. Prioritize what's more important. Think of what's going to be better for me before anybody else.

Sometime you have to be selfish.

I sometimes make stupid decisions and I beat myself for it.

I try to convince myself that if opportunities are for you, they will come back.

But my impatient self just want to beat myself more becuase I could have had an opportunity an earlier time but I deliberately passed on it.

I need to prioritize my decision making.

Monday, July 10, 2017

Rejection. 10/8

I know rejections are part of life and when one door closes, better ones open.

But being rejected always makes you feel one thing, all the time.

The feeling of not being worthy enough.

You start to question your value and self worth.

So now I'm googling quotes on rejection as my coping mechanism to remind me to not give up and keep pitching.

I will find that right door one of these days, I will.

Friday, July 7, 2017

My Two-Week Adventure in British Columbia and Alberta, Canada

Canada Day 150, July 1, 2017, Calgary Alberta
Sea to Sky Gondola, British Columbia

Canada Place, Vancouver, British Columbia

Drumheller, Alberta

Lake Louise, Alberta
Rogers Pass National Historic Site

Banff, Alberta

Columbia Icefield Glacier Adventure, Alberta

Jasper, Alberta

Lake Louise (again)
I had to upload another picture because this lake is just breathtaking!

Lake Moraine, Alberta

Canadian Badlands, Alberta

Mission Hills Estate Winery, Kelowna

At Vancouver airport, waiting for boarding ...