Monday, July 4, 2016
Lightbulb moment: Love your thesis.
💡 I'm going to stop hating academic research because hate is not doing any good. It clouds your judgement and consumes your life. Hate is never good. I'm going to love academic research. I love my thesis. Please don't get mad at me. Let's make this work. I'm sorry for hating you. #LoveYourThesis ❤️❤️❤️💖❤️❤️❤️ more hearts. ❤️💛💚💜💔❣💕💓💝💘💗❤️💛💚💜💝💘💗❤️💗💞💜💓💝❤️❤️💝💚❤️💝#Hope #Faith #Trust
Resistance is not going to take me anywhere. Acknowledging mistakes and embracing feedback should always be a key.
I'm going to revise my thesis and find the flaws in my paper and explain the flaws.
After this, I'm still going to give up on my academic career. I'm just really not fit for this kind of complexity in life. But I will finish my masters, as promised. I will face this head on and with my chin up.
As long as I don't repeat my defense. Oh God, please don't.
Anyway I don't think I won't. Research isn't always perfect. There will always be flaws. This is the trial and error of life. Full of realizations.
Being a perfectionist and having fear of failure is so hard sometimes because, whenever I feel that I'm wrong, it's so hard to accept it. I rationalize and find a way to make it right but only in the end to realize that accepting I made a mistake was the shortest route to avoid headaches after all.
Finish this Toni, and then move on with your life. Leave the academe but not education.