Who Sits At Your Table? #GoodFriday2018

While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Romans 5:8

"He takes in sinners and eats meals with them, treating them like old friends." Luke 15:2

Who sits at your table?

Focus on Here and Now: Gestalt Therapy

"The idea is to avoid dwelling on the past or anxiously anticipating the future."

I am currently trying to calm myself by applying the principles of Gestalt theory. 

Focusing on the "Here and Now". 

I have fallen of the grid from my Viber, Facebook and Instagram for more than a week already. Some of my friends have had difficulty trying to reach out to me. Some of my friends were able to find ways to do so. I am still thinking how I would maximize the benefits of social media but at the same time falling of the grid and not having to reply to every single people who tries to reach out. 

I want to live in the moment.

I want to stop dwelling on things that happened in the past.

I want to stop worrying on things that might or might not happen in the future. 

I want to live in the now and conquer life one day at the time.

I want to focus on things that I can control and submit to God the things that I cannot.

I pray to God that I may have the wisdom to know the difference. 

http://www.minddisorders.com/Flu-Inv/Gestalt-therapy.html

Important thoughts to put in my journal. 

1) Be aware of what I am doing.

2) Be aware how I am doing it.

3) Be aware how to change myself

4) Learn to accept and value myself.

In my weakness, your strength is perfected.

On March 6, 2018, I sank into deep depression and anxiety for reasons I will no longer disclose in my blog. Whatever those reasons are, I was trapped into a cycle of self-blame. Blaming myself for all the mistakes I have done. Regretting the things I have said. Feeling bad about what could have been and what if's. 

But for some reason or another, I ended up signing myself to a retreat that unknowingly would change my life. It was there that I realized that maybe the series of events that have happened in the past weeks had actually led me to attend this particular retreat where I met wonderful people that would add a positive contribution to my support system and circle of friends in life and in Christ. 

The retreat was more than just a retreat but I have created myself a community where I can feel at home and pray to God at the same time. I am strengthening my faith in him and submitting all my worries to God. For He alone knows that plans that He has made for me. 

Thank you Lord, for such a wonderful and life changing experience. 

Thank you for my new family. 

May Animo KPB?

DLSU Alumni Homecoming 2018

10 years since graduation.

I initially joined the Alumni Homecoming Council back in August 2017 thinking I would have discounts in getting an Alumni Card (that costs 5k pesos btw or $100) or not having to pay Homecoming entrance fee (which I still ended up paying anyway).

I thought the service that I would render would waive me from these fees. But, I actually ended up spending MORE money by attending the meetings and "spending" precious moments of my time attending meetings that I barely could pay attention to.

Oh well, it's the experience that counts.

I did meet a lot of alumni.

Maybe we'll cross paths again someday, maybe not.

The dancing and singing was a fun experience.

I did not dance. I did not sing. I just watched as the older alumni enjoyed the time of their lives. All I could think of was how fun it would have been if I had my own peers enjoying the show and ballroom dancing with the dance instructors.

Oh the generation gap is real.

But I don't regret attending the homecoming!

College 2008 represent! Only 4 people from our batch attended. lol 

Our table. 

A lot of the older alumni I met were equivalent to my dad's age and some could even pass as my grandfather. They were convincing me to join the homecoming every year from now on.

Hey, titos and lolos, it was really REALLY really fun. I valued the words of wisdom. But I don't think I'd see myself putting this on my calendar as a yearly event. I hope to see you around somewhere and maybe we'd recognize each other. But for now, I have my 30's ahead of me and I know there are other things in life that I should be experiencing and exploring.

"Papunta palang po ako, pabalik na kayo."

It's hard to "come home" to a home that I never really left in the first place.

I will be more than happy to attend a homecoming event when Lasalle is already really proud of what I have accomplished after leaving the campus grounds. 

Thank you DLSU! Animo!